Moving forward

Growing up in poverty is something very natural to me. Even though I will not admit it, it is a very real part of who I have been. Living in lack, living from day-to-day financially and putting down the one grocery item for the next. I guess you get the idea of what I am trying to say?

The reason why I say I will not admit it, is because I do not believe I am in poverty, despite of the natural. I believe I will be flowing in wealth and I am not supposed to be living in lack. In my late teens going through to early adolescence, I started working at a school, left for Johannesburg at some point, joined a modelling agency, auditioned for Neville D's choir, passed my learners licence and all the X, Y and Z. I made sure I was making moves for my destiny despite of how the natural situations looked like. Now that this seems normal to me I started upping my moves a notch.

I am busy with a project I cannot share until it is revealed, but what I can share is that I started recording solo in studio for Soundcloud. It is my own song and it will be out online early next year. During the progress my insecurities really hit me square in the face. The all familiar fear of not being good enough, the comparing and the over self evaluation just flooded my mind. It made me drunk on emotion and I hated every part of it. In the past, my ego would take a knock in studio and I would just not finish the project. This time however, it is a little different. As I would go to studio I would pray and dedicate the time to my Lord. I would speak into the air and say that, "this will be my best studio session ever". Now praying and saying all these things does not always take the insecurity away, it can, but it didn't completely for me. I started pulling my nerves together and not think about the silly insecurities and I started believing in myself again. I want to better myself and I am progressing in this slowly. Today was my second studio session and it took a lot of time and energy, but I started to love the progress and I am excited for what it is going to sound like. So keep an ear and eye open for this project.

Coming back to my point. I believe we all have to start somewhere and the starting point is difficult. The thing is, we need to break through for our own sakes and not be timid about our dreams and goals. Yes the journey is going to be tough and it is going to take strong self discipline and a good self esteem, but we need to move forward.

I have a dream to be famous for my music, my writing and for who I am so that I can influence my generation in a legendary way. As I dream all these things, I fill myself with inspiration. I would watch countless Adele, Fatai, Us The Duo, Bethel, Kim Walker-Smith clips and all the thousand of people I follow so that I can learn from them. What does stage presence look like? What does it mean to be authentic in the media's light? What do they do to draw people to their passions? I leave more encouraged than ever. I start to believe because I fill myself with positive things that contributes to my future positively.

I am sure that you all know that Neville D, a musician and singer/songwriter from Cape Town has been nominated for a Grammy Award. This is a major thing in Cape Town's musical history. Even more so, I feel encouraged and so inspired to do my best in this life and living out in full what is on the inside of me. However more importantly I want to be the best me there is to be and that is all the flaws and all, and I will enjoy it.

Here is to a very bright future. I refuse to be average and in the statistics of normality, I was born to be great. We all were, we just decide on which side of the stage we will dance.