Abba Father (poem)

Tonight as I walked in the dark
I thought about what it would be like
If you were here with me in flesh
If you were here holding my hand

I would be so proud
I would be so in love
For I know that I would be caught up in your very nature
I would be soaked in by your very scent

But as I came to a very real conclusion
My heart began to ache because I know I have to wait some time
Before I get to lay on You like I want to
And before I can kiss you on Your cheek

For You know the depths of my heart
And You would be able to explain the many layers within
As it is not always that I myself understand what happens on the inside
But You would be my guide

If I could hear Your audible voice like the prophets of old
I would cry because I would know that You are more than what I perceived You to be
And if I could feel you touching into my soul
I know that I would believe more

There is pain and sorrow that I carry
In places where it is hard to locate
But I know that You would shine a light
Only You and I would understand and You would show me the way

So I continue walking on this dark road
As men stare at my bleeding soul
They tend to watch and speak
As shadows move and become my realities

However, all these shadows they become a distant thought
When I am around You
For it is in secret that I find You more real than the air I breathe
And more real than the words I speak

But I long for that day that I close my eyes
Or You come to fetch Your children from the earth in the last days
However, I know that I want this to be quick
So that I can see you face to face

I don't want to be here for years and years
All I want to see is You right in front of me
As You look and stare deep into me
And I look and stare deep into You

For that day You will unfold me
That day You will show me who I truly am
But until then
I cry and I weep, because only You are my reality

My spirit cries, ABBA FATHER
ABBA FATHER

My heart pains tonight, as I crave only an intimacy He is capable of giving me. What inspired this poem was when I had spoken to one of my colleagues about the changing process of who I was to who I am becoming and this left me so emotional as I did introspection about what was really happening in the places I also don't seem to know what is happening. Also, as I left a production tonight to walk home, I realised that it was the physical touch I actually crave from my Abba Father in heaven that I need so badly! It is only Him that can satisfy every living being that walks on the face of the earth. I cannot wait till I get to see Him face to face, whether by death or by the great day of sorrow. 

Shalom,

Rowyn Coetzee. 

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