You clicked reset (Poem)

I remember that night on Christmas Eve
You both drew me by what was happening inside of me
There was darkness, there was fight
There was a battle as I heard that ancient song

You messed me up when you touched me that night
As you told me to calm down
You said that everything would be fine
And that I would enjoy this moment

With a magazine in my hand and a glass of red wine
You knew just how to take my heart and place it at ease
But still I felt the beats of my heart beat to the sound of inner war

Virginity was more than a diamond to me
But I have forgotten what it really means
I have tasted of a fruit I should not have that night
Now I suffer those waves of repercusions
And I still hear the sound of those waves in my very ears

Then you slid your hands over my body
And my heart began to scream
My body became the epiphiny of tension
As you pained with hunger to get into me

In innocence I knew that it was way to late
And my body became your prized machine
All I could think about was
Why did I have to be me?

You embraced as I desired
And you hurt me as I contemplated
You really satisfied a very real part of me
However, what I did not see
Is that you clicked RESET in me

You reset my body, you reset my emotions
All I knew and everyone I met afterward would carry your fragrance
This had triggered something in me
Way before I could ever see

So years went by, and months became a struggle
For now emotion had come to meet me at the table
So I stared at your face within the shower
And I knew that my heart was not my own anymore

Your eyes they swallowed me alive
For they looked deep into my soul
You were attracted to my brokeness
I was fascinated with your beauty

As each minute went by of every day
All I wanted was more
More touch, more satisfaction
More war of the soul as my body longed for yours

With each pulsating heartbeat
I would die over and over again
Simply because you only gave me
To a certain extent

I felt alone with you and my emotions were based around you
You said to me, "Let's hang today"
I said, "I'll cancel for you every single day"

So you left me alone to die
And you made me angry at life
But I remembered really why
If I had traced back to when I was still a little child

It was there when two guys reset my everything
They took away my everything
They had owned my soul
They had reset me unto a strange place

So since you clicked reset in my body
You left me alone to recover all by myself
And I had found that in this
I had you inside all this time

You clicked reset in my body

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