Rumour has it

If you had heard a rumour about me in this time, then the rumour is probably true.

I have made the impulsive decision to stay here in Cape Town in this week. I will not elaborate on the reason for staying here at this moment.  I do realise that I have just allowed an opportunity to pass me by, but I could not continue with the Johannesburg journey. I knew I would never love Johannesburg geographically, the way I do Cape Town.  Although I have experienced a lot of precious memories during my stay there that I cannot speak about, I do not regret leaving.

There are many implications because of the way I went about things, and there are many relationships to be mended. I have received some of the offloads from a few of my friends, which didn't go too bad yesterday. One of my friends even said he would have fetched me. Lol. Which I found really sweet and unbelievable,  but after his wife reassured me as he was speaking, I soon realised he was telling me the truth.

I really do not care if I look unstable, confused and impulsive. I know I had to experience it for myself, instead of just wondering if it would have worked and how it would have been. And it was not my intention to come back until a certain thing was said to me. I am not angry, but I am also at this place now where I am not anyone's possession.

Some of my friends have really been kind and some have just vented at me, which is pretty understandable. I do apologise for anyone I have hurt in this process, and if you want nothing to do with me then that too is understandable.

So what's next for me?

Well firstly I am job hunting. But my focus would be on my modelling career and my music part time. I am getting back on track again and I will see how things come together in every step I will take.

After watching Tyler Perry last night, I felt really encouraged that we are all human beings and we are not constant. But like the mythical creature, the phoenix, I too will rise from the ashes!